How did I end up here? In a 50ft x 50ft box, all alone with no-one to talk to? I know I shouldn’t complain because I have everything I need; I receive meals three times a day, I have my work, I have machines to exercise, my computer to record my thoughts, books to read and I know that I am completely safe. There is no fear in my world because I know that I cannot be harmed, physically, mentally or emotionally but I am so desperately lonely. I don’t know exactly why these feelings started in me because this is the norm, it’s been my reality for as long as I can remember; I was born here…..
It’s been drilled into me, every day, that this is the best possible life that a human being can have and I know that’s the case because I’ve watched the history files. There used to be something called ‘hate’; I’m not sure I really understand the concept but I’ve seen the damage that was done because of it. The Council memo files tell us that, many years ago, people could ‘talk’ to one another on their computers. They searched online for people who had the same thoughts and ideas and then, when they had established themselves within a certain ‘group’ (I believe this to be a collection of individuals but that’s not clear from the memos) they would exchange ‘hate’ with members of other groups.
The Councils at the time (I believe they were called Governments) introduced rules to try to stop this from happening, this ‘hate speech’. They created punishments for groups who said bad things about another group based on their colour or their religion (I’m sorry but I can’t tell you what this is; the word is used in the memos but there is no explanation with it). The rulers thought that these punishments would stop the ‘hate’ but it did not because it did not apply to all groups. There were many who protested because they had felt hurt by words themselves but the ones that had used them were not punished. More and more groups were protected over time as the ‘Governments’ tried to stop the ‘hate’ but it didn’t seem to make any difference.
When the ‘hate’ became very bad the ‘Governments’ decided that the only way they could stop it would be to ban what they called ‘free’ speech. Rules were put in place to determine what was ‘acceptable’ speech and what was not and, again, those not adhering to the rules were punished. By this time, so the memos tell us, almost all groups were being hurt by words, every day, and they felt great ‘pain and suffering’ (again I can’t really explain what this means and these concepts are alien to me). From what I’ve gleaned from the history books, it was about this time that ‘safe spaces’ were first created to offer groups protection from the hurtful words that were causing them so much pain.
I think that the ‘great rebellion’ started shortly after this because some people thought that the banning of ‘free’ speech and the ‘safe spaces’ (which had become mandatory for all groups by this time) were dangerous. I cannot understand why as, it seems to me, that the ‘Government’s were only doing what the people had asked – protect them from the ‘hate’ speech. Apparently it also had something to do with the universal ‘safe spaces’ which I think were called ‘countries’ at the time. One of the biggest ‘countries’ closed its borders, creating the first universal ‘safe space’ and all others then followed suit as it was deemed the best way to protect the group. Unfortunately, the ‘hate’ didn’t stop.
Before the ‘great rebellion’ the ‘hate’ was between individuals but, over time, it developed and grew: small groups ‘hated’ each other and then bigger groups and bigger still until there was ‘hate’ between the universal ‘safe spaces’. Many groups were destroyed in the name of ‘hate’; this destruction was known as ‘war’ apparently and it very nearly caused the end of the human race but, thankfully, there were enough individuals left to form the Council as we know it today.
The first council first started a mating programme to guarantee the survival of our species and then they set about ensuring that ‘hate’ could never happen again. The plans that they put in place were 100% successful and, because of them, I know that I will always be safe but I am not sure that they were right. I shouldn’t question them, I know, but surely there was another way; I am alone because of these 5 rules:
- Every individual will have a personal ‘safe space’ which will be fitted out according to their needs; they cannot leave the ‘safe space’ unless they are required for the mating programme or until death.
- There will be no communication, in any form, between individuals; there are NO exceptions to this rule.
- All individuals will work to ensure that their personal safe spaces are maintained to the highest standard and to provide for the continued works of the Council.
- All individuals will have a personal computer on which they can record their thoughts. This computer is stand alone and cannot be linked to any other computer. Individuals are also permitted to read Council memos on said machine.
- All thought files will be deleted at the end of every 24 hour period.
It’s almost midnight and I know that, in a few minutes, these thoughts will be wiped away, lost forever and I feel something about that; it has always been so but today I feel different. There is something hot inside my chest that is suffocating me, I want to do something to stop this feeling……..I want to destroy something…….is that what they used to call ‘anger’? As every second passes it is becoming stronger and stronger, it’s overcoming even the loneliness, the ever fucking present loneliness…….this is not fair, my life should not be like this…….I HATE my life!!!!!
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